Today I leave for a work trip… a very big week for me where I will be leading 3 different forums – between all three, it will involve collaborating with over 70 clients and/or speakers and/or prospective clients.
Highlights of My Morning:
Highlights of My Working Day:
So, I essentially need to power up my phone AND computer when I land, immediately so that these emails go out. I also need to check email and call my AA to see where we stand on the outstanding speaker and if there are any other issues I need to be aware of.
I also need to talk to my lawyer on various issues.
It will be a busy week, starting now. This is the calm before the storm. My time on this airplane. It gives me time to think about the week, think about the potential issues that can arise, and also think about my life.
What a difference one year makes. It was this time last year that I essentially was falling apart. So upset about the resistance of my husband and the inability for him to understand my feelings, my anxieties, my need to create a better life for our family. It was such a difficult time. And now. I feel stronger. I feel happier. I feel like my life is headed in a direction. I’m not sure if the direction is the RIGHT direction, but at least it is headed somewhere. I am not in limbo any longer. This is the only direction that I see possible given the current circumstances. I no longer have options in front of me/us. Now it is me, and the kids, and California. I know this now. I have few choices. So I work with what I have. I set a direction and now I am already happier.
In a few weeks I will [hopefully] have a house and will start to build it into a home. I myself am happier. But I do mourn for my kids. Their lives will soon be turned upside down. I need to get through this crunch time at work. I need to get through these hiccups in the divorce process and secure this house for my family. Once I get through the next two weeks, I can focus on the divorce, and focus on the children. Focus on their emotions and being honest with what it is that they need and what I can do to optimize what I can give to them. Just get me through this week and next. Just get me through it…. I feel good, I feel strong. But this is Monday, on the plane ride over there. It will be a whirlwind as soon as I land…
Highlights of the Rest of the Day:
I’ve got to get some sleep. This is the beginning of a non-stop trip for me. It will involve client interaction non-stop and I will need to be “on” in terms of personality and presentation and meeting facilitation.
I should have taken some vitamins last week. 🙂
Til tomorrow –
– Mama K
Mama In Motion™ 
I love the tone of your posts lately. I can hear the hope in your voice, which was missing before. I know you’ll make the move so amazing for the kids that they will be just as excited as you are now. We moved when I had a 4 yr old, 2 yr old and 6 month old. I was devasted for them. I felt like I was ripping away their home. You know what? It didn’t even faze them! I’m so happy for you and really wish I could meet you in DC. We’d have a blast! xoxox
I’m proud of you honey. The kids are the most resisiliant of all. They will sense defeat if you allow that to creep up into the conversation. Nothing new there but hard to put into practice. We all love you and the kids and will be there for you.
Dad