I’m laying in bed, almost asleep. Realized that I never sent out a post, so here it goes on my iPhone.
I sort of worked, and sortif parented today. I don’t feel like I did either particularly well. We had a meeting with the child custody mediator which always makes me feel defeated. I am so tired. I feel like issues which drowned the marriage are surfacing again here and I can’t stand it. I am ready to move on and start a new life damn it and temporary purgatory is going to make things harder for me. If it is better for the kids, fine…. I will do what should be done. But i feel like i am always the one that sacrifices. These feelings are still so raw and now there’s salt thrown at me. Just let me do what is right for these kids already.
Ugh. What happened today?
I’m feeling wiped out. Not a good worker. Not a good mother. Not moving forward. Staying still and immobilized due to other people’s fear. Haven’t we all gone through enough already? Just let us move on and get on with this new life already. Give me my energy back so I can focus on the kids where my focus should be. They need it.
Zzzzzzzzzzz
– mama k
Mama In Motion™ 
Kim, I read your posts everyday and you ARE a great mom…sometimes I actually am jealous of how much you DO do with them. My S.O. is the stay at home parent and I’m out working my butt off. I feel for you and for the little ones in the way of the divorce BUT I will always be the first person to say that I would have preferred my mother to be a single mom than to suffer & watch her suffer through all her years of marriage to my step-father. So know that this IS in the right direction and that as much as your kids are hurting right now, they are resilient and will be ok. And so will you….much love to you….
Kim dont be so hard on yourself your a great mom! Life sone days are just so, that does not define you by any means. I hope all this will be behind you soon, And heaven help Bill if you end up paying him alimony! The kids need to be with their mom too!