Happy Friday! I’m looking forward to this weekend. I will be solo. So I got a heavy dose of “kid” this morning to fill me up before they left me for the weekend.
Highlights of the Morning:
Highlights of the Zoo:
Rest of the Afternoon:
I’m going to try not to be upset about these lonely weekends any longer. My first alone weekend was very, very rough. It was hard for me to wake up in silence – it felt wrong. I maybe had 2 or 3 mornings of silence over the past 6 years and it just felt un-natural to me. I felt like I was missing my limbs or that I had two left feet or something. It just felt “off”.
But no matter how I look at it, no matter WHAT level of custody I have with these kids going forward, there will be obviously be days where I wake up without them. This is just reality. And I know this. I can almost accept this now. This is going to be part of my new reality going forward. I will not have them with me every day. It’s as simple as that. I get it. Sometimes it will be harder for me and sometimes it won’t feel as difficult. It will just be.
So, I sat in silence for awhile. It was a stark difference from just 2 minutes prior — twins crying to nap and Red bouncing around trying to be helpful. Now it was completely quiet except for the sound of the rocking chair. I sat in the chair in the sun. I checked email. I saw a “Groupon-now” for a deep conditioning and haircut that if bought, had to be used within 2 hours. So I made an appointment and bought the Groupon and got my hair conditioned and cut.
So now I’m getting ready for my weekend away. A B&B in wine country with heated pools, mineral baths, bed in breakfast, and massage (another Groupon previously bought). It was going to be for 2. But now I am one. And I am using it this weekend, alone. And happy about that. I will wake up to a quiet house tomorrow morning, knowing that the kids are fine and having fun, and I will pack up the car and go out to breakfast and road-trip. I have a massage at 11 AM and will relax the rest of the day at the pool. I will spend the weekend with myself and with my thoughts and enjoy the sun, the pool, and the silence.
I love Groupon.
Have a terrific weekend Mamas – I’ll post pix of my weekend on Facebook and likely Tweet about it too.
Here’s to sunny days!
– Mama K
Mama In Motion™ 
You look fabulous! I love your hair. I am also incredibly jealous of your solo weekend away. Sounds like Heaven. Enjoy it….your deserve it.
By the way…..I got a job…..Lingerie Merchandising Rep. I think it will be great.
OMG that job sounds AWESOME!!!! What Mama DOESN’T need some fancy lingerie??!?!? You scored a dream job! Great!!!! Thanks for the hair comment. It’s a really good cut. Best I’ve had in a long time.
The weekend away was wonderful. It really put a lot of things in perspective for me. What I’m going thorugh is not tragic. And many have traveled this same road before. And survive. The kids survive too. I am looking forward to new beginnings, because I know they are out there waiting for me.
Thanks for being so patient with thme and for all of your wonderful advice. I really admire you and your perspectives.
I am so glad for your hard won perspective. Remember that though your circumstances may not be tragic….they will likely feel like it on somedays. That is OK…embrace those days and indulge in wallowing. It is difficult to gain insight and appreciate those enlightening solitary moments without them.
In viewing the photos from your weekend, you look like a college girl. Again… jealous. Clearly, your alone time was a great benefit to you.